I got you so wet, it's like a rain forest

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 16:14:20 GMT

i just want to get high and be invisible so i can walk around and just laugh at everything and everyone.

hay

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 01:35:17 GMT

i miss you a little bit.

no, not you.

YOU.

:-\

it feels weird, but i kinda like that.
smooooochies

Sat, 25 Oct 2008 17:21:34 GMT

why won't this stop?

since there's been so much fucking drama on LJ lately...

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 17:24:15 GMT

nobody likes to, but i really like to cry

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 02:10:40 GMT

i'm a depressing person.

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 04:01:33 GMT

my boyfriend and i are moving in together! i couldn't be happier!

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 03:30:01 GMT

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 23:36:33 GMT

dear live journal:

sorry for the neglect, i've been quite busy doing some growin' up as well as my fair share of growin' down.
for example-
1. i have a full-fledged unofficial live in boyfriend of about 7 months.
2. i have started taking birth control, so like, good news, i'm babyfree!
3. i just paid my car insurance.
4. i'm about to cook my boyfriend a real dinner, not ramen!

however, on the other hand:

1. i've been playing neopets
2. i quit my job.
3. i really like candy, cartoons, and puppies. i'm pretty much a pedophile's legal wet dream.

so anyway, i ate mushrooms a few nights ago with some friends. i think it's safe to say that that was quite possibly one of the worst nights of my life. i was so sandy, sweaty, greasy, filthy and i just felt like swallowing my tongue. i promise next time i'll totally do the babysitting.

anyway, i'm gonna go start dinner, because if it isn't on the table when will gets home he's going to beat the shit out of me and i'll have to sleep on the floor again. no, just kidding. really.

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 05:06:16 GMT

my glasses are constantly loose, which causes them to fall off of my face so easily, like if i break too sudden or something. when i get them tightened (which only lasts a few weeks till they loosen up again) it feels so good and secure that i get sexually aroused. i'm talkin drenched. not moist. like a fuckin rain forest.

Fri, 09 May 2008 01:41:34 GMT

it just really sucks to know that you wouldn't do things for me that i would, without question, do for you. it really sucks bad.

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 04:21:36 GMT

It's been about two years since everything happened. I can't believe how much has changed. I can't believe where I am today, I would have never imagined. I'm still constantly stressed out and anxious, but I guess it's okay. I'm really happy with my boyfriend, he is quite possibly one of my favorite people in the world. I have never felt so understood by anyone before, everything just comes easy. Plus, he has sex with me while the Nickelodeon Kids' Choice Awards is on in the background (and then watches it with me after.)

pretty much it.

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 05:43:08 GMT

1. JC chazes is a total tool. i hate how he criticizes people on america's best dance crew. bro seriously like, you could have gone justin's route and been totally popular. you could have even gone the rest of the group's route and gone into hiding... but you took it to an extreme- you made an album and put tara reid in your first singles video. sweet. way to go you fucking douche bag.
2. i really wish i could have been born asian. the girls in the asian dance group are so goddamn cute and they seriously have the BEST legs i have ever seen. 2die4.
3. blake sennett and winona ryder are dating and that makes me really sad. i really do not like her, i think she is a major twat. i wish he would date someone else. someone like me =[
4. someone finally bought the location of the old beverly hills cafe. alice and i saw a 'now hiring' sign the other day. and then i got a call this morning. it was the new owner, he asked me if i wanted to work for him. it's going to be a greek-american style place. i don't know. maybe?

5. i love dancing.

6. i miss dancing with brooke zalis.

what's the fucking deal!?

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 04:01:05 GMT

fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

seriously bro

fuck you!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 02:10:03 GMT

i get myself into the dumbest fucking situations.

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 03:14:48 GMT

i might not be the most motivated, goal oriented, ambitious girl in the world; but i am fucking proud of myself.

i need to get my growing up on.

PS. i've recently realized how much i like reduced fat milk. i take this as a small sign of maturity.

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 04:00:59 GMT

i am constantly stressed out and anxious. i have never wanted to leave somewhere so much in my entire life.

why won't this go away?

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 05:02:03 GMT

i really believe that most people so intensely lack personality and therefore will never truly find love.

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 05:12:41 GMT

so far, 2008 has brought me is the lack of healthcare and a boyfriend.

i've never been so afraid of getting an infection or so happy with someone in my life.

i'm pretty sick of sofla, ready to leave!

kpeace!

shit.

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 07:41:31 GMT

i REALLY fucked up. bad.

if you hear that joy has come to town; track it down, take a picture and tape it to your eyes!

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 18:42:23 GMT

i just want to say that although i might seem like the biggest negative nancy, i really do try and see the bright side of everything and i really do learn from my mistakes.

with that being said, i am going to put forth the effort that it takes to meet people and make friends.
i really kinda need some.
i suppose it'll be much easier if/when i go to back to bcc.
plus i'll be going with alice...
which means well...
some teacher is going to be pretty miserable.

i've got to get ready for work.
so here's to good tippers and half assin' sidework!

peace babies.

this aint a song for the broken hearted whoa whoa

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 19:17:55 GMT

this song is my fucking theme song.

anyway;

1. work is good.
2. social life is struggling a little.
3. all i want are whole wheat chicken breast wraps with fresh greens and peppers, olives, light cucumber and ranch dressing.
4. i really want to watch harriet the spy.
5. kinda lonely
6. orlando with brooke in two weeks.
7. this thanksgiving will be alice and myself. alone. getting high and eating pizza and cheezie bread and watching macy's parade and charlie brown thanksgiving specials. we're orphans and don't have families.
8. i have really soft hair.
9. i'll be 18 shortly.
10. new york for christmas with brooke and will. it won't be weird since i'm kind of jewish. i hope it snows, i have yet to see real snow.
11. i am growing more terrified of nuclear war with every passing day. the stress is taking a toll on how i live my day to day life.
12. alice's mom is so fucking funny. i'd rather hang out with her than most teenagers i know.
13. i rather talk in list form.
14. i need to buy a winter coat.
15. i had to file a dispute against some slut on ebay... along with five other buyers in the last 3 days.
16. i like ending lists in even numbers.

so i got hired @

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 21:31:01 GMT

the bev in plantation.

quite pleased i suppose.
oh, we will see.

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 16:40:08 GMT

i love alice, brooke and karla so much.
and that ugly hawaiian sam freedick.
and spicazoid.

sigh.
every day that i am not at work, my heart breaks a little more.

alice said to me that it must really be nice to be able to feel like a normal seventeen year old again.
but it doesn't.
i actually like feeling like an overworked slave.
it's probably second best to counting the money at the end of a shift.

it's okay though, as christina aguilara once said, "i am a fighter."
or something like that. i don't know when i wrote that destiny's child came into my head.
whatever i am an american woman with an american doll sized best friend.
and life's all right as long as jewel and good charlotte say so.
i'm going to shower for the first time since...
i can't even remember.
then i'm going to clean.
and then i'm going to apply to cheddar's because daniella and athenas work there now, i can't picture wanting to work anywhere else.

good bye cruel world,
hello wet hot american autumn?

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 03:22:28 GMT

so, i'm pretty much an unemployed dropout.
this fucking sucks so bad. this was the last fucking thing i needed.
i'm not in school.
i don't have a job, or a car.
and if all those things are the same in 2 months i won't have health insurance.
sweet. fucking. life.
like,
i try and be positive and optimistic.
i really fucking do.
god i hate this.
despite the bad tippers and all the asshole tables and the long days and the crappy side work,
i fucking loved my job and most of the people i worked with.
i can't believe it's over. just like that.
shit.

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 01:53:57 GMT

so my work closed,
and that's it.
done.